Shambles

I have never felt so unorganized and confused in my life.

After a long month at work with so much going on, I am trying to return to some normalcy. Don't get me wrong, the shambles didn't happen over the past month. Ever since I moved here I have been unorganized, and it is so unlike me.

I have blamed it on moving and starting my new job first, being too busy (though I absolutely hate that as an excuse for things because it will never go away - you will always be busy), and not caring about my apartment. I finally decided that not caring about my apartment is no reason to not care about my life within it.

My organization skills for my papers, my e-mail inbox (hovering at 100 unopened e-mails and too many others to count that I need to just trash), my evening schedules, my sleeping habits, and my weekend slumps are just completely unlike me. I am starting to feel like I am a very lazy person and I know that's not what I want to be!

What's overwhelming is I think I need to fix everything all at once. This is why it's bad for me to become unorganized in the first place. There is such a hurdle to getting back to organization though, once there, it is a lot easier to maintain.

I don't want to be like this. What happened? Darn you, real world - I will blame you for this.

But the point now is to move towards organization so I don't just get stuck.