I'm Learning A Lot

I haven't been keeping up with my blog as much as I would like lately. I will attribute a lot of that to being busy, but there has also been a lot going on and it is sometimes hard for me to be completely honest. It's hard to be honest because I've never wanted this to be a bitch-fest but not everything in life is always so pretty. Upon reflection, I am able to say things that I would never be able to say in the moment.

A few people have given me some really great feedback on my blog which inspires me to keep at it. What they told me was that this time of your life (and I'm convinced many times of your life) is confusing and hard to navigate. Just knowing that someone else is going through a similar situation and what they're going through helps you in understanding your own situation.

I originally wanted to write about this transition but I had no idea what it would do for my life. I think I've learned more about myself in the past year than I have in my entire life about who I am, who I want to work toward being, some things I want out of my life, and how I want to get to those things.

My work experience has taught me a lot about people. Not just because I study people for a living but because of the dynamics at work that include people you spend almost all day with but really have to make an extra effort to get to know behind those 8+ hours a day. And that has of course made me think about what kind of person I portray at work versus who I am whenever you just hang out with me.

I don't know, it's really hard to explain. Not that I'm trying to be a different person or that I haven't gotten to know people, just that the very inner workings of your life are only shared with a few key people.

I'm not quite sure why I'm rambling on about this but I guess it's all part of the learning process. What's scary or exciting is that I know I have so much more to learn about myself and that I'm starting to get some ideas of how that may happen. I say scary and exciting because every time I think about these things I get this feeling of wonder inside of me...that promptly makes me want to throw up. But from what I've heard and observed of other people, this feeling can be a really good thing.

Some of my blog posts have become very cryptic and an explanation I can give for some of that is because I just have a general feeling and something I want to say, but I'm still figuring it all out so I don't quite know what it means yet. But maybe you're feeling this too or maybe you have felt it before...maybe you have yet to experience it. So, like I said before, perhaps you will know exactly what I am saying because you have experienced it yourself and you will feel comfort in knowing that someone else is just as confused as you are.

But I'll leave it with I am learning a lot and I'm generally liking where it's all taking me.