Monday, January 7, 2008

Sometimes It's Sad

So another part of moving and all that jazz that I have yet to talk about too much is that sometimes lonely feeling you get when you're in a new city, still don't know a lot of people, away from friends and family, and what are you to do? I know that I haven't written about it on the day it happens because I'm down, don't really want to write about it and make myself more sad, and I think I wanted to give some time for reflection so I could bring it to the ol' blog with some sort of lesson learned.

I don't know if I have found that lesson just yet...mainly sadness will hit me on the weekends because I'm not busy with work. During the week, I think of all sorts of fun things that I can do on the weekends to explore Dallas more, get out and get some exercise, sun, fun, and fresh air, or just do something. However, when the weekend actually comes I spend a lot of time at my apartment.

I blame it on being tired and needing to catch up on sleep, needing to do things around the apartment, needing time to just relax and not run around so much, but really I think it would be good for me to get out and do more. For one, I wouldn't think so much about not having someone to hang out with because perhaps I would contact someone to do something fun. Or I would just keep myself busy and, as I said, get to know this city a little better. But it boils down to my belief that I have fun doing activities with other people and I just don't think I have as much fun doing things on my own.

I may need to get over that one. This experience may be all about being more comfortable doing things on my own.

But I have to ask, what is the secret to dining alone? That, to me, would be just the most boring experience...unless I was on some tropical beach, sipping a frosty beverage, and watching the sun set. That's one of those things where the experience entertains you. But just a night out to dinner with yourself at a regular place - what makes that fun?

So at least I've pinpointed an area that I need to work on, improve, grow...

1 comment:

Terri @findingdrishti.com said...

i've never figured out the dining alone thing. the last time i was in chicago, i sat at the sushi bar at a restaurant. i figured lots of individuals sit there and watch the sushi chefs work. no awkardness, right? so wrong. one of the chefs kept smiling at me and saying hi, and i ended up trying not to pay attention to their work because i didn't really feel like having a conversation.